Cashew Loses It

To Create and be eaten. Self improvement, Self Sacrifice and look into my LCHF/Keto/(somewhat)Gluten free journey.

Hello tape measure!

Yep, finally went and bought myself a new tape measure. The last one, as previously posted died a near heroic death. Well, as heroic as a tape measure that got melted in the dryer could possibly be.

So, I measured myself this morning post work and pre-nap. The scale, meh, not that promising, though the tape measure, now that’s where this starts to get interesting.

8/1 →9/1→10/1→11/9

  • Waist: 56″ → 52″ → 50″→ 46″
  • Hips: 58″ → 56.5″ → 54.75″→ 51″
  • Neck: 18″ →16.5″ → 16″→ 16″
  • Wrist: 7″ → 6.5″  → 6.25″→ 6.5″
  • Thigh: 28″ → 27″ → 25″→23.5″
  • Calf: 22.5″ → 21″  → 21″ → 21″

Somehow I doubt my calves will ever actually reduce any more in any signifigant way. Even when I was a kid they were still in the >20 inch range. I did have smaller ankles though.

My post-nap weight today was 257.8. My pre nap weight, which was a LOT of water was 259 and change. It’s amazing how a couple hours nap can really help to shift fluids in the right direction. I drink like a fish during the night and it’s gotta go somewhere- and I think it’s my feet! Darn my half camel background! Ha! Seriously, I can retain water like nobodies business- depending on the time of the month, I feel like a blimp. It’s what makes that tape measure so important.

And, these are my weights, they are on trend too.

8/3/14-  302.8

8/10/14- 302

8/17/14- 297.6

8/24/15- 297

8/31/14- 291.4


9/14/14- 286.2

9/21/14- 277.2

9/28/14- 280

10/5/14- 273

10/12/14- 272

10/19/14- 268

10/26/14- 262

11/2/14- 259.2

11/9/14- 258.8

Now, yes, it’s a big change- nearly 60 lbs worth, but to me, in the mirror, I don’t see it. I guess it’s a normal psychological thing, but the weight numbers really don’t mean anything- they’re not relatable to me.  Now inches and sizes, that’s relatable. (btw, I mentioned earlier in the week. Size 20 jeans. Well, 20w, but it’s all good. I know I was in an 18 on my 29th birthday (I wore a.. rather short skirt on that birthday. I probably should have worn leggings. Instead, I wore ruffle pants and I’m pretty sure most of manhattan saw them… but that’s neither here nor there.) And I know I’ll be there probably for Christmas. I still think that skirt will be permanently retired. Thank the Gods for the midi skirt trend!! I did try on all my steampunky clothes, and they’re ALL WAY too big. Like too big to even merit taking it in, it’d be like sewing a new dress. Means I gotta save my pennies to buy a new outfit. Woo!

Good things are afoot!

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I’m back!

I had some time away- and now I’m making myself come back, not because it is easy, but instead, because it is hard, and I really need to do this. It’s part of being accountable to myself, and yep, I’ve been slacking.

So, what’s been going on? Well, I have a picture that’ll help me explain.

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Well, I had a stall, and a bunch of lb up lb down lb up lb down days from about 10/9 to 10/20, and I got depressed and disheartened. I had a return to losing, and I am feeling better about myself again. I know I really shouldn’t freak out about the little things, but they really do bug me- I have a big fear of reinflating to my previous size, and I am really fighting as hard as I can to not do it.

I am happy people have been saying that i’m looking smaller, It helps me to know that all this hard work isn’t for naught. Sometimes it really feels like it is- and that just ain’t cool man, it just ain’t cool.

So, any way, back on track, I think all the fluids finally shifted, and I’m down to where I should be.  Down a total of right around 55 lbs, which is about 17% of me gone. Up a total of a lot of saggy skin though, but honestly, I’d rather the saggy skin instead of health problems!

I have been taking my progress photos though, and am due for another set tomorrow, and I’ll make sure to post them.

The last 2 weeks of progress pics below the cut

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Weekly progress (just a little late!)

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273 today. Gettin’ there.

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Updated the progress pics!

Yeah, I actually did it! Took me long enough.

This week, on Sunday, I weighed in at 286.2. I never seem to be at my least on Sundays- I usually hit my weekly low earlier in the week, but que sera sera, ya know? As long as the line is trending in the right direction, it’s all good.

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See? its a nice even downward trend. I like it!

Check out after the cut for this weeks progress pics.

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(9/1/14) 37 days in, and the first of the month!

Well, I can officially claim some good news… Weighed in this morning at a new low! 288.8!! That’s 28 lbs lost. Hoody Freaking Hoo!

I also had nobody ask me if I was pregnant recently, and someone even said it looked like I lost a little. Honestly, I won’t lie, I don’t see it but my pants do fit looser, and my bras fit better. Yay!

I got to see the Doctor on Sunday- he said my sugars looked good, and that I didn’t have to check them twice a day anymore, a once daily either fasting or postprandial will be ok. I’ve been advised to exercise a couple times a week, it’ll help with the sugars and the weight loss.

I also bought myself a Bodymedia Fit Armband. Yes, I know, it’s the one the biggest loser’s wear. I honestly don’t watch the show, but I do personally know people who’ve used it, and have done amazing when it was used as a tool. I’m interested in what it does re: my sleep… I don’t sleep well… it’s part and parcel of working night shift and having 2 little kids.

I held off on the pictures, so I could do them and measure myself all at once. All that fun stuff behind the cut!

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(8/3/14) It’s Sunday Bitches!

Yep, it’s Sunday, a week down and completed. 

I’m keto’d up, which is good, and get this, I have full doctors approval- which was surprising but really nice. 

I weighed in after I slept- 309.6 Not bad at all!  The Hubbs and kids let me sleep in (kinda) after my doctor’s appointment today. The doctor fully ok’d my very low carb diet, (that’d be low carb, high fat, moderate protein). My A1C though… SCARY. 11.1. That’s like having pancake syrup course through your veins. No wonder I’ve felt like utter crap lately!

Today we talked about my labs, and I got put on what feels like a ton of meds- we’re continuing the Metformin twice a day, I’m taking vitamin D weekly because I don’t do the sun (I work nights. I don’t see much of the sun ever), Omega 3 fatty acids because my triglycerides are elevated, but they should go down as my sugar gets into control, and the Omega 3’s can go bye bye. He also started me on Victoza which is a once a day injectable. I  have to ramp up to the full dosage over the next 2 weeks, it’s to keep me from getting all the GI side effects full force- I guess it’s better to ease into them. Oh, and get this, my insurance covers it and the needles too. Woohoo!

Progress Photos!







Wow… my house is a mess. It’s ok, we’ll work on that. 

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(7/27/14)Week one, Day one

Lord help us all. Or at least me. That’s ok, seriously. Lets get this shit started.

Weight: 312.6



The pics are headless because I didn’t feel like running far back enough to include it. I should probably include one of my face too…


Yeah, 312.6, better than I thought it would be (I thought I was closer to 340. At least that’s how I feel, and it doesn’t feel good. Onto the meat sans potatoes, under the cut!



Short term:

1) Go into ketosis, and stay there! (RTS: Buy keto pee strips.)

2) 299. 13 lbs. Very doable. I’m giving myself 2 months, not as a ‘or die’ deadline, but if I’m not there in 2 months, I’ve got some evaluating to do Lucy.

3) Maintain this blog, it’s passworded, so if you have it, you know, you’re my friend. I trust you to get on my case about it. Seriously! Goal is Pictures on Sunday, Weigh in on Sunday, Not stressing over time of day- I know I retain water like a mofo. Maybe Measurements Monthly? That sounds good, Measure on the first of the month.

4) Reevaluate goals monthly, on the first of the month. I should be in Keto by then, that’s next week.

Long term:

1) Hit 180. Thats very long term. I’m anticipating that at a 132 lb total loss (for big goal.)at 2 lbs per week it should take: 66 weeks. As in next summer I’ll smash that mofo. I hope. This will be attempt #3 at a big loss, I know I can do it, I’m at the have to point with my damned knees and hips- I’m in constant pain, and I’m only 33 years old.

2) (more realistic) Fit into that size 18 miniskirt that makes me look like a tart.


1)Starting back on the Low carb/Keto train, starting today.

2)Gonna log calories in my new fat book (appropriate, eh?). Sticking to about 1850. (as per calorie spreadsheet. I’m hoping to dry up the boobies, so it should help. I might use MFP, but it intimidates me sometimes, we’ll play that one by ear.

3) Gonna start to love water more than Michael Phelps. (I am not typically a water drinker)

What’s goin’ on?:

Woke up with a massive leg cramp (like in my shin, not in my calf, thank goodness!). Gotta ask, the water rule, it’s half your weight in oz, right? I gotta fill up my water pitcher- I just got a new one yesterday, it holds 1 gallon of water, and it should be nearly enough (I know I drink enough other fluids to make up the difference) I also got a new nice hot pink water bottle, it holds 20 oz, so that’d be 6 in a 24 hour period. It’s also clear plastic, so I can see what I got left, oh, and it has a non-fancy top, with a wide opening. My metal 32 oz bottle is beautiful but is perpetually funky with it’s weird narrow top opening and fancy spring loaded top. What else. I’m not going to stress over exercising yet, once I get into being keto, which should take a couple of days, I’ll figure out what I want to do at that point. So, that’s it, that’s where I stand this morning. 

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